FESTIVE

I used to love Christmas, my favourite time of year, So please forgive me, for not feeling seasonal cheer. I had a Christmas wedding, it was perfect in every way, What I would give, just to relive that special day. MND has robbed me, from festive things I love, Everyone so joyful, and I have had enough. I loved to go shopping, and buy people lovely gifts , But it is too hard now, which leaves me feeling miffed! The tempting Christmas dinner, makes my heart feel sad, I don't want to watch, people eat the food that I once had. The traditional Christmas cracker, my hands just can't pull, The whole day no longer, makes my heart feel full. Everyone is drinking, and getting rather merry, Champagne, wine and Baileys, or Snowball with a cherry! I'm not on the same wavelength, as people having fun, If I am honest, I just can't wait, until the day is done. Work Christmas parties, and nights out with friends, I miss everything so much, when will the torture end. The constant tubs of chocolates, and yummy festive sweets, I am feeling so resentful, that I can't have treats. I used to be like Elf, the best Christmas movie ever, So bouncy and excited, making memories to treasure. I'm more of a Grinch now, or Ebenezer Scrooge, Miserable and grumpy, and just not in the mood. Then we have the new year, where we toast the new year in, With fresh hope and positivity, of what the year will bring. I simply don't have that, I have a head of fear, So that is what MND feels like, at this time of year. But despite how I'm feeling, I'm grateful to be here, I'm thinking of lost loved ones, at this time of year. To all my friends and family, have a fantastic day, I promise to smile, and not let my mood get in the way!